Someday I will return...Someday...But not this day

Sorry, Readers (If any), Sorry Weblog...Its been a long time Since my last entry. Someday I may return to the world of blogging. However I have grown out of the habit. I have returned to the old fashioned style of keeping a journal, you know ye olde' blank pages binded together and scribbled upon with lousy handwriting. Not my favorite style (especially with my handwriting) through it is more convenient for me now. I may type up what I have written down someday, but don't hold your breath for it. I just wanted to type a proper farewell, goodbye, Sayonara, get lost, F*** off, etc. If and when I do decide to return, I may just open with my second weblog "Land without Rhyme or Reason" and get that current waste of space used up. Till then....Take care and Blessed Be.

I am a Steve Zhan fan!

Summer is comming soon. My mom signed me up for Golf lessons that I can get a college credit for yay. Though I have no intrest (or talent) in sports. This was proved yesterday when we were playing with a tiny toy basketball set at school. I was practically placing the ball and my hand through the hoop-and I still missed. Go me!

Lets see. During the time my brother was up here to visit we went to see Sin City. That was SOOOOO Good. So much fun. All the guys where dark, masculine, kicking ass. All the women rarely wore clothes. Just like a comic book. Elijah Wood looked like an evil Harry Potter, real freaky.

Last weekend my mom and I also went to see Sahara and that was alot of fun. The supporting actor Steve Zhan, was really cool. I loved his messy hair and scrapper attitude. He seemed tougher even than the main character. The movie is based on a book by Clive Cussler. So now I really want to read the book. Actually there is a whole series of books on the adventures of Dirk (the main character). So there might be a sequel to Sahara some day.

Sorry I have to cut this short but I gotta go, laters.

The Wallflower, the Butterfly and the Twelve Initiations of Love

“In each of the following experiences, man or woman is fully capable of giving and teaching others the first quality, but for the personality to learn the second quality is a struggle. When one’s understanding of this second quality equals that of the first, he or she has then achieved mastery of a particular Sun Sign. The soul must pass more than once through the First Six Initiations of Love as:

Aries
the infant “I am”
to teach that love is innocence
And learn that love is trust
Taurus
the baby “I have”
to teach that love is patience
And learn that love is forgiveness
Gemini
the child “I think”
to teach that love is awareness
And learn that love is feeling
Cancer
the adolescent “I feel”
to teach that love is ecstasy
And learn that love is humility
Virgo
the adult “I analyze”
to teach that love is pure and
Learn that love is fulfillment
After achieving emotional maturity in these first six stages of development, man and woman must then pass through love’s Final Six Initiations (more than once) to discover its deeper spiritual meaning in:

Libra
marriage “I balance”
to teach that love is beauty
And learn that love is harmony
Scorpio
sex “I desire”
to teach that love is passion
And learn that love is surrender
Sagittarius
knowledge “I see”
to teach that love is honesty
And learn that love is loyalty
Capricorn
experience “I use”
to teach that love is wisdom
And learn that love is unselfish
Aquarius
idealism “I know”
to teach that love is tolerance
And learn that love is Oneness
Pisces
submission “I believe”
to teach that love is compassion
And learn that love is ALL

And so to realize at last that
LOVE IS ETERNAL

Taken from Linda Goodman’s Love Signs “The Twelve Initiations of Love”
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I am not sure which stage I am at. Either Aries stage because I don't trust people entirely, or maybe the Gemini stage with the thing about awareness. Of course I could just be stuck at the Scorpio stage (my own damnable Sun Sign no less).
I have been flirting with the idea of seducing a social butterfly. He is a Libra and is younger than me so it might not pan out as planned. I also may loose interest eventually. It's just that I've been spending most of my time at school with him, which goes along with having two classes together. My other friends, I barely get time to see. But I get along with my butterfly well because of his casual personality. His easy-going and comfortable behavior leaves me relaxed and well entertained in an otherwise rather boring day. With all the other assholes, dumbasses and whatever running around-boys way too young or too old, boys and their stupid trading cards, boys that are too short, boys that are too big and scary, boys that are not really boys, boys that deliver nothing but bullshit...I am not saying my butterfly better than the rest of them-just that he hasn't lost my interest like the rest of them. And I must say, when a man trys to play me for a fool, I loose interest, real quick. I've been called a shrew and I've been called a prude, I don't care. I'd rather be called that than be called 'easy'.

By the way The Wallflower in the title is me. I usually stay in one place and rarely move about to socialize. Let others do the talking I'll do the listening. However most of my friends are social butterflies. They've forced me to be less shy than I was in my earlier years and I respect that about them.

I am still around...just not enough time to blog

Life happens. Spring Break is over. So much to say though sorry, I won't say it this post. This was more of a hobby I took up when I had nothing better to do over last summer anyways.
I have been listening to Matchbox Twenty more than you think you are, over and over again. I have a small collection of CD's that I listen to. Rob Thomas' music I can never tire of. Not only that, many of his songs deal with insane thoughts so I don't feel bad about being repetitive. I only have one Matchbox Twenty CD.
Damn, gotta go.
Updates: My brother's birthday is Friday, also Buddha Day I think, not sure.
Prom is on the 23rd
Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy movie comes out the 29th!!!!!!
Till next time...^-^

Feast of All Saints

Since I procrastinate OFTEN! I shall use my masterful procrastination abilities to take the opportunity to blog...with my mom on the harmonica and my dog howling in the background. I finished reading Feast of All Saints by Anne Rice. Its a great book about the privileged yet oppressed 'gens de colour libres' of pre-Civil War New Orleans. The story was about learning where you came from and applying that knowledge to wherever you go in life. Its about inbetween lives that these people had where looking white was favored above having black traits. It was also about these people of color having slaves of their own. As well as the misconception that there is better than here. Passion, pride, sensuality, discovery, scandal, anguish...how many words can I think up to describe it hmmm. Anyways its a great book. Everyone should read it.
Since Feast of All Saints I've moved on to reading Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe by Fannie Flagg. Its real fun so far. I've seen the movie Fried Green Tomatoes. Both book and movie are my moms favorites.
I'll try to find time to update again...sometime (^_^!)

Keanu my angel

ohhhhhh Keanu Reeves. Last night I went to see Constantine with DD. We were waiting in our seats, alone, and a half hour before the movie was to start. I was lucky enough to find a dollar on the floor. Then I knew it was going to be a good night and good movie. After all that day was really rough on me.
At school I found out Liz never turned in a CD to the public library for me so now I have a huge fine. I am mad at her, but more so mad at myself for trusting her. I know better than to trust others with things that mean something to me. Plus I knew she has been way self absorbed lately with her play acting shit. She's becomming more and more of a snob.
But going to the movie theater to see sexy Keanu and finding a dollar made me very happy. The movie was good, funny. When it started and I saw the possessed girl crawling around on the ceiling and hissing, I just busted up laughing. I think it was saposed to be scary though. I don't want to spoil any scenes but there where times where Constantine would say or do something that was just funny. I wish he kissed Rachel Wiez though. I am not that much of a fan of her but still, I was sitting in the movie thinking, common! Kiss her dammit! I hate it when movies do that to you. Then you walk away thinking that there better be a goddamn sequel where he does kiss her. I want to read the comics now too. In fact I rented Alien VS the Predator last weekend and liked it alot. I think the Predator developed a crush on that girl. They would have been a cute couple. Hunting aliens together, using the acid blood to carve out hearts on stone walls. Well anyways I want to read the comics to AVP now too. There is a DeviantART.com artist that I found that thinks the same thing. Here is a link to one of her beautiful drawings OMG true luv.

The price of my love

Yesterday my brother’s girlfriend Steph came by to visit. Steph brought with her, her stepbrother Andrew. I forgot if her dad and his mom had gotten married yet. What I do know as that they just came from her grandmothers wedding. Andrew was nice he played the piano for us and we had a good time chatting away. Well actually I just sat there quietly as I usually do, listening to mom asking them questions and telling them about what has been happening to us lately. It got kinda uncomfortable because everyone was picking up the fact that he was interested in me. Or so they told me. I was trying to ignore it. Besides the guy said quite blatantly that he had no aspirations and is quite happy living a simple life doing babysitting and music performances. Plus he smokes and when he came back inside his clothes just reeked. Other than that he was good looking. Nineteen, dark hair, looks kinda like my brother.
It was good to see Steph again but I was real said because she didn’t have David with her. Our dog was sad about that too. I really miss David and am counting the days till April when he can come up here and visit us. Maybe we will go see a scary movie because I know he has no one to go see freaky movies with down there, Steph won’t go see them.
DD’s birthday is coming up. I think I already have a present stashed away for her somewhere I just need to find it. Bought it a while back. Valentines day is coming too so I also have to come up with some pink cheesy gift to give the girls. I figured I’d draw them a picture of a naked man covered by a heart that has their name on it. Something weird like that would do. Each man would have to look different though. Catered to specific interests. Nicole would like a picture of Johnny Depp as a Pirate/Elf; for Liz I would draw one of Torgo; and DD’s would just be some skanky looking old man. It’s a good thing I have fairly good artistic skill.
I’ve been thinking about Valentines Day a lot. Not just because I am excited over the thought of chocolates. I’ve learned that in Japan women give chocolates to men on Valentines Day. Usually this is kind of an obligation that they give the chocolates to their boyfriends, male friends and co-workers. This tends to be expensive. So March 14 has been designated as White Day, when the men return the favor. Usually by giving the women mostly their girlfriends something white (often lingerie).
I remember when I was a kid; we’d buy these boxes of cut out Valentines cards. Mom and I would fill out all the names of the kids in my class (except for the kids I hated), and then on Valentines Day we would go from desk to desk placing our cards into the paper heart shaped ‘mail boxes’ we made. The cards where mostly Disney brand with pictures from the Little Mermaid Tonka trucks, Lion King, or GI Joe. I would go through the cards, mostly looking for candy but also looking for something special that maybe some special boy might have scribbled out. I think I did get some hand made thing like that once or twice, but never from the boy I wanted it from. LOL.
These days at my school you can purchase candy grams or roses for your love or for your friends. It’s a good time to play practical jokes and write something dirty on the card. Of course your friends will always love to get something delivered to them special during class, even if the message included makes them squeal with embarrassment/rage/laughter/insert emotion here.

Well that’s all, I am having trouble getting back into the groove of blogging, but I’ll manage. (‘.’)